Anyone else, anyway. I lost my phone anyway, but right now, I don’t feel like it’s a bad thing. I don’t want to talk to anyone today. Anyone but him and he won’t talk to me anyway.
I found these natural anxiety support supplements and I’m grateful for the calm feeling they provide. I love and hate that they don’t entirely mask what I’m feeling. They just make it easier to accept that I’m feeling whatever it is I’m feeling. I’m okay with that, even though it’s easier to numb feelings with drugs and alcohol. However, any time I’ve chosen to do that, it only made things worse. I’m not looking to make anything worse. I’m not looking for anything. I like this.
I’m finding comfort in my solitude again. At the same time, I’m never as comfortable as I have ever been talking to my best friend. I still loathe myself for the decisions I’ve made. I don’t want to talk to anyone today… but I’d give almost anything in the world to talk to him.